TRANSFORMATION – Page 6

“Self sabotage, the act of undermining your own wellness, happiness, and success, whether conscious or not, is you taking on the role of punisher, abuser, or bully…against yourself.”~Stephanie Quilao

Have you ever said something and regretted it merely seconds after it came out of your mouth? Have you found yourself really close to successfully attaining a long awaited goal then doing something to negate everything you’ve done to get there? Are you angry about decisions made in the past but not changing those decisions to reflect who you are now? Are amazing things happening in your life but your focus is on all that’s NOT happening? If so, you may be a victim of self sabotage!

I recently experienced all the above on my birthday….

The day before (and on) my birthday I started receiving birthday wishes and love from friends and clients all over the world. I was delighted beyond words to read every single private message, post, text, and email in addition to the phone calls. My heart was filled with happiness and as one friend put it I was having a “global birthday party”! I was surrounded by a beautifully woven blanket of love and felt the energy in every fiber of my being when suddenly my thoughts turned to those who I WANTED to get messages from but didn’t. I started to get angry that I was always there for them yet they couldn’t take the time to say happy birthday.

For a moment the hundreds of loving messages were negated by simply NOT hearing from two people. I quickly realized that the actions, or in this case inactions, of others controlled what I was having! I quickly let go of those thoughts and got my space back but questions still remained; How many times did I push away love or friendship because of some crazy thought that if it wasn’t from this one or that one that I wasn’t loved? How many times have I lowered my having-ness to match those who couldn’t have ME. (Self sabotage!) It was only a moment but I thank God for awareness and finally being able to see it!

Once I saw this I was able to return to my ‘happy space’ and went off to my party. I decided that those who showed up were the ones who were supposed to be there and I couldn’t wait to celebrate! The surprises kept coming! A dear friend who I wasn’t expecting showed up and I received a text from a lovely man who, when he found out it was my birthday, dropped everything to drive (over an hour) into the city and come to my party. I was seriously bursting with joy! Then it happened again… In all my joy, overwhelmed with love, I started joking around and said something that was rude, insensitive and judgemental.

Although it was not my intention to invalidate something that means a lot to someone I lost my space and did just that. I immediately tried to ‘fix’ what I had said but the more I tried the deeper the hole became. I am blessed to have forgiving, loving people in my life including the person whom I inadvertently, unintentionally and uncharacteristically spoke less than nice words to. In retrospect I couldn’t “have” what was being openly offered and allowed an energy to come through me. How many times had I done this before? Why would I say or be that way? In my human-ness I allowed fear and judgement to seep into my words for no reason at all other than I had lost my space and could not HAVE all the love that surrounded me.

Self sabotage comes in many forms. I see it happening with friends, members in my Weight Watchers® meetings, my clients and myself. What leads to any sort of self sabotage is a lack of having-ness (the ability to embrace and have something) and/or not being able to clear an energy or picture you are holding on to from the past. When you lose your space to an energy or picture all kinds of things come through including judgement, pushing people away or sabotaging your success because you can’t have it. How many times have you said or done something and afterwards wondered why? Instead of asking ‘why’ go within to find the underlying cause. It’s a good bet you’ll find the answer and it may not be what you think!

Although I spent the week beating myself up for being less than compassionate in a mere few sentences I realized that what happened was a blessing in disguise. It showed me I still have a lot to work on this lifetime. It showed me that I’m not only human but I’m perfectly perfect in my IMperfection. It also illuminated those places where I was stuck in a judgement picture and lacking having-ness.

Everything we do or say has an impact on our growth. Be aware of the areas you are sabotaging yourself whether it be a job change, your relationships or your dreams. If you are no longer in alignment with the choices you’ve made in the past which affect you today, it’s perfectly OK to change course, heal and open your eyes to those places where you have gotten in your own way. Stop the madness of self sabotage! Awaken, let go, embrace and raise your having-ness for a beautiful life! If you can have it, the sky’s the limit!~Shine Your Light Debbie

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Self-Sabotaging (ladymaturity.wordpress.com)
Are You Sabotaging Yourself? (Understanding Self-Sabotaging Behavior and Breaking It) (personalexcellence.co)
Self Sabotage: When you play the role of punisher (Backinskinny jeans.com)

“Destiny grants us our wishes, but in its own way, in order to give us something beyond our wishes.”~ Johann Wolfgang von Goethe

Destiny is in YOUR hands! You have the power to create it but perhaps what you think your destiny is and the vibration you put out is merely a small piece of your soul purpose! What if your destiny is BIGGER and more wonderful than you are imagining and you are limiting your creativity by trying to control the outcome?

Control over your destiny comes in many forms. It could be constantly worrying or dwelling on past failures. It comes in the form of those little thoughts of doubt and fear that creep in. It might even be that at some point in your past you decided you couldn’t ‘have’ anything more than what you have. The negative thoughts which run through your head have the power to limit your destiny and take you off your path just as positive thoughts have the power to help in manifesting your dreams.

It doesn’t really matter what form it comes in or where the control comes from; Controlling your destiny does not work. It is steeped in resistance, effort and well, control. It is precisely that control that causes you to get stuck and feel like a hamster on a wheel going round and round. Your spirit knows where you are going and having a stranglehold on your growth merely prolongs you getting there and often times limits creativity and takes you off your path completely. Imagine what could be if you didn’t limit yourself! Imagine if you let go of HOW to get there and instead followed your intuition and inner guidance allowing things to effortlessly unfold? What if the “destiny” you “think” you’re headed towards is actually more profound, expansive and beautiful than you are imagining?

Your Spirit Knows!

“…you can’t connect the dots looking forward; you can only connect them looking backwards. So you have to trust that the dots will somehow connect in your future. You have to trust in something – your gut, destiny, life, karma, whatever. This approach has never let me down, and it has made all the difference in my life.”~ Steve Jobs

Beyond logic and thought there is your spirit and spiritual essence. You came here with a purpose and your spirit knows how to fulfill that purpose. You must trust that your spirit knows and will guide you. Why limit yourself by trying to control what is infinitely more than what you could imagine? All it takes to create your destiny is to put it out there! It takes trust, a bit of healing and allowing your creativity to flow freely. Your spirit knows this. In fact YOU know your spirit knows this! How do you know you know? When you’ve been knocked off your true path, there is effort, negativity and the feeling of being stuck. You know you are headed in the right direction when it feels good. You know when it feels right. You know it when you stand bold and tall with confidence. You know when you feel like nothing can stop you!

Let go of trying to control your destiny. Put the dream of what you want out there with the intent that whatever happens is for your highest good. Dream it, will it, let it go and allow it to unfold. Follow your intuition and trust in spirit. Let your destiny come to you by allowing it to unfold! Embrace your true purpose and let it shine! Embrace your goodness and know that all things happen for a reason. Imagine what life would be like if your destiny is actually MORE than what you imagine!~Shine Your Light Debbie

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