The Power of Love to Heal Your Heart: Artist Date 64 Not Too Much

Exploring Love and the 4th chakra  is not an easy or particularly comfortable task but it is well worth the journey! I recently taught a psychic meditation workshop on that very subject and was honored not just with email of thank you but a blog post sharing the profound experience one woman had. 

My friend Lesley had never before attended one of my workshops however she has had several readings from me. I have no words to describe how honored, humbled and touched I am that she shared her experience on her blog and has graciously allowed me to share it with you. Please enjoy this guest post by Lesley Pearl.

“Artist Date: 64 Not Too Much”


“I do not do yoga.

As a massage therapist, I know it is kind of part of the gig.  But I can’t.

It freaks me out.  Holding poses for an extended period makes me panic.  Whether I am in a big anonymous class or in a tiny studio with just three other students and the most gentle instructor imaginable, it is always the same.  Open heart.  Teary eyes.  And a small voice crying out in the silence, “Are we done yet?  Are we done yet?”  I ignore her and…panic.  More tears.

People tell me this is good.  That it means I should do more yoga.  That I am working something out.  I ignore them and make a mental note never to discuss this topic.

Until now.  In a yoga studio.  Artist Date 64.

My friend, and clairvoyant genius, Debbie Taitel, is conducting a post-Valentine’s exploration of the 4th Chakra, the energy center of the heart.

I think I am safe because it is a meditation workshop and not yoga.  And I meditate.  I have for 12 years.

But I am wrong.  The panic is there almost immediately.  Stifling.

Debbie first mentioned the workshop to me a couple of weeks ago, during one of our clairvoyant sessions.  As I watched my heart tentatively open to hope and the possibility of love for the first time in what seemed like a very long time – for an almost bachelor, a man from my childhood, living nearly 700 miles away.(Artist Date 62)

Last week I told him I “couldn’t do it.”  (Artist Date 63) Whatever “it” was.  Seemingly falling head over heels over head for one another.  He asked how realistic it was.  I didn’t care.  I wanted to find out about us.  He said he did too.  But when I sensed his wavering, come-here-go-away, and when the excitement in my stomach turned into a knot, I said “no.”  And we somewhat sadly settled on friendship.  At least for now.

I thought that with this grand gesture of self-love and adult decision-making, my feelings would go away.  I was mistaken.

He has been dancing in my head for a good portion of the day and I am surprised.

So it is a relief when Debbie asks us to invite anyone “grounding” through us to please leave for the duration of the workshop.  I ask, but he remains.  Or I keep him near.  I am not certain.  It is the pink elephant in the room I have been told to pay no attention to.

I am embarrassed.  Ashamed.  I assume the shift is easy for him.  But I do not know this.

I am consumed by the thought that I do not want to write about this.  Especially as he regularly reads my blog.  I feel vulnerable and uncomfortable.  I want to run.  Just like in yoga.

Debbie asks us to ground ourselves and I see a climber’s rope shoot out from my 1st Chakra into the earth, its metal claws digging into clay and dirt.  Debbie saw me do this once before – during one of our sessions.  She found it clever.  A good way to shake off the too many grounding through me.

But today it feels unstable.  I want an oak tree growing out of my ass, downward into the earth.   But this is what I have.

(c) 2004. Andrew Hall,

She asks us to create roses in our mind.  To fill them with past hurts.  Unrequited loves.  Loves we either did not or could not return.  And to destroy them.

I see the International Rose Test Garden in Portland.  My ex and I visited here one winter when he was interviewing for jobs.  The bushes are clipped.  Dead.

My eyes get teary and my nose flares.  I feel like I am on the verge of big, heaving sobs.  I see my ex husband.  My mother.  My father.  The first boy I took my clothes off with.

I see my first real boyfriend.  And J – perhaps the love of my life, me with a dick.  Mr. 700 Miles.

I feel Debbie lay a box of tissues on my thigh.  I am afraid to move.  That I will come totally unglued if I do and land on the floor, a throbbing puddle.  I feel white energy leave through my heart and it is over.

I destroy the rose, stripping it naked, petal by petal, while those around me engage in more violent scenarios – skeet shooting or blowing them up.

In the final meditation, safely shrouded in golden light, I loop my own energy over and over through my 4th Chakra, my heart.  I feel nauseated.  A wave slams into my gut and through me.  If I were standing it would knock me over.

Debbie smiles.  This is the energy I put into the universe, she explains.  The kind that makes people “run for the hills.”  I nod, as do most of those around me.  It is the love energy, meant for me, mistakenly turned out and overwhelming others.

I think about the old idea I still carry around sometimes, that I am “too much.”   It is quickly displaced by the realization that I no longer feel like running.  Not from here.  This place or this pose.

Not from this love.  Not from myself.

Not too much.”

No Lesley you are not “too much”. You thanked me for “holding space for your heart” and my reply can only be… it was an honor!~Shine Your Light Debbie

Lesley Pearl is a writer, bodyworker, and weight-loss coach living in Chicago. Her blog “The Wandering Jewess”, chronicles ‘life after marriage’ in a series of weekly solo dates. She is currently working on her first book titled “Left. Write.

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There are miracles happening every day in every corner of the world. Put down your worries and stress. What you carry with you is a burden. It weighs you down and stops you from experiencing and seeing the miracles unfold before your very eyes. Living your own miracle is simple because YOU are the miracle; the extraordinary event considered divine. Every birth including your own is divine and a miracle! Think about it. You are not just particles and molecules. You are energy vibration made solid.

In fact YOU and your energy system are a world in and of itself. You have energy centers (chakras) which spin and generate energy creating an aura of colors that surround you. As spirit you have a beautiful energy and knowledge beyond this current lifetime. You have power and strength. What you seek outside of you is already inside of you if you choose to look. Inside of you there are miracles to behold! The question becomes do you truly want to see? Do you truly want to know yourself and what you are capable of? Do you truly want to wake up?

If the answer is ‘yes’ I must caution you that once you awaken to your true nature and abilities you can’t turn them off. You might be able to turn away from what you find for a time but as they say ‘you can run but you can no longer hide’. Awakening means facing reality, clearing resistance and taking responsibility for yourself, your actions and words. You will find you are not crazy, broken, damaged or need fixing. You will find the energy of forgiveness and the power it has to heal.

I say these things not to stop you but so you understand that if you’ve lived your entire life a certain way your awakening might feel a bit uncomfortable at first. You may have identified with or have been living from someone else’s pictures of who you are. It’s very much like waking up after a nightmare. What you experienced in your sleep might linger and disturb you for a time but you’re happy to be awake and back to the reality of life. Remember Scrooge in “A Christmas Carol”, Dorothy in “The Wizard of Oz” or George Baily in “It’s a Wonderful Life”? Although they are fictional characters there is a part of watching them wake up that we all relate to.


As we entire into 2012 it is time. It is time to wake up. Step into yourself and feel solid. Feel the miracle of your heart beating. Step into your knowledge and see. Speak and live being true to yourself. Honor and follow your passion, hopes and dreams. Step into the core of your being the source for creativity and your power. Step up and forgive yourself and others. It is a new day full of clarity. Step into your body, care for it AND your energy system. Generate energy full of love, peace and compassion. Nestle yourself in the center of a universe filled with joy and happiness.

As you awaken to the miracle that lies within and step into it you no longer need to look outside yourself for answers. You will see life and nature and others as miracles. Living and seeing yourself as a miracle full of love attracts those doing the same and heals (if they want the healing) those who wish to be a part of your life. See yourself standing as a blaze of color in all your glory. This is not selfish for the miracles you see within are the miracles you will see in others but the only way to do this is BEHOLD THE MIRACLE OF YOU! ~Shine Your Light Debbie

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