The Power of Love to Heal Your Heart: Artist Date 64 Not Too Much

Exploring Love and the 4th chakra  is not an easy or particularly comfortable task but it is well worth the journey! I recently taught a psychic meditation workshop on that very subject and was honored not just with email of thank you but a blog post sharing the profound experience one woman had. 

My friend Lesley had never before attended one of my workshops however she has had several readings from me. I have no words to describe how honored, humbled and touched I am that she shared her experience on her blog and has graciously allowed me to share it with you. Please enjoy this guest post by Lesley Pearl.

“Artist Date: 64 Not Too Much”

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“I do not do yoga.

As a massage therapist, I know it is kind of part of the gig.  But I can’t.

It freaks me out.  Holding poses for an extended period makes me panic.  Whether I am in a big anonymous class or in a tiny studio with just three other students and the most gentle instructor imaginable, it is always the same.  Open heart.  Teary eyes.  And a small voice crying out in the silence, “Are we done yet?  Are we done yet?”  I ignore her and…panic.  More tears.

People tell me this is good.  That it means I should do more yoga.  That I am working something out.  I ignore them and make a mental note never to discuss this topic.

Until now.  In a yoga studio.  Artist Date 64.

My friend, and clairvoyant genius, Debbie Taitel, is conducting a post-Valentine’s exploration of the 4th Chakra, the energy center of the heart.

I think I am safe because it is a meditation workshop and not yoga.  And I meditate.  I have for 12 years.

But I am wrong.  The panic is there almost immediately.  Stifling.

Debbie first mentioned the workshop to me a couple of weeks ago, during one of our clairvoyant sessions.  As I watched my heart tentatively open to hope and the possibility of love for the first time in what seemed like a very long time – for an almost bachelor, a man from my childhood, living nearly 700 miles away.(Artist Date 62)

Last week I told him I “couldn’t do it.”  (Artist Date 63) Whatever “it” was.  Seemingly falling head over heels over head for one another.  He asked how realistic it was.  I didn’t care.  I wanted to find out about us.  He said he did too.  But when I sensed his wavering, come-here-go-away, and when the excitement in my stomach turned into a knot, I said “no.”  And we somewhat sadly settled on friendship.  At least for now.

I thought that with this grand gesture of self-love and adult decision-making, my feelings would go away.  I was mistaken.

He has been dancing in my head for a good portion of the day and I am surprised.

So it is a relief when Debbie asks us to invite anyone “grounding” through us to please leave for the duration of the workshop.  I ask, but he remains.  Or I keep him near.  I am not certain.  It is the pink elephant in the room I have been told to pay no attention to.

I am embarrassed.  Ashamed.  I assume the shift is easy for him.  But I do not know this.

I am consumed by the thought that I do not want to write about this.  Especially as he regularly reads my blog.  I feel vulnerable and uncomfortable.  I want to run.  Just like in yoga.

Debbie asks us to ground ourselves and I see a climber’s rope shoot out from my 1st Chakra into the earth, its metal claws digging into clay and dirt.  Debbie saw me do this once before – during one of our sessions.  She found it clever.  A good way to shake off the too many grounding through me.

But today it feels unstable.  I want an oak tree growing out of my ass, downward into the earth.   But this is what I have.

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She asks us to create roses in our mind.  To fill them with past hurts.  Unrequited loves.  Loves we either did not or could not return.  And to destroy them.

I see the International Rose Test Garden in Portland.  My ex and I visited here one winter when he was interviewing for jobs.  The bushes are clipped.  Dead.

My eyes get teary and my nose flares.  I feel like I am on the verge of big, heaving sobs.  I see my ex husband.  My mother.  My father.  The first boy I took my clothes off with.

I see my first real boyfriend.  And J – perhaps the love of my life, me with a dick.  Mr. 700 Miles.

I feel Debbie lay a box of tissues on my thigh.  I am afraid to move.  That I will come totally unglued if I do and land on the floor, a throbbing puddle.  I feel white energy leave through my heart and it is over.

I destroy the rose, stripping it naked, petal by petal, while those around me engage in more violent scenarios – skeet shooting or blowing them up.

In the final meditation, safely shrouded in golden light, I loop my own energy over and over through my 4th Chakra, my heart.  I feel nauseated.  A wave slams into my gut and through me.  If I were standing it would knock me over.

Debbie smiles.  This is the energy I put into the universe, she explains.  The kind that makes people “run for the hills.”  I nod, as do most of those around me.  It is the love energy, meant for me, mistakenly turned out and overwhelming others.

I think about the old idea I still carry around sometimes, that I am “too much.”   It is quickly displaced by the realization that I no longer feel like running.  Not from here.  This place or this pose.

Not from this love.  Not from myself.

Not too much.”

No Lesley you are not “too much”. You thanked me for “holding space for your heart” and my reply can only be… it was an honor!~Shine Your Light Debbie

Lesley Pearl is a writer, bodyworker, and weight-loss coach living in Chicago. Her blog “The Wandering Jewess”, chronicles ‘life after marriage’ in a series of weekly solo dates. She is currently working on her first book titled “Left. Write.

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Meditation: What’s the Purpose & Benefit?

InnerselfHave you ever asked yourself why meditate and turn your attention within? What’s the purpose of quieting the mind, getting grounded and centered? Why meditate at all? Do you use meditation to solve your problems? Why bother meditating when things are going well? What’s the benefit? These are interesting questions to ponder!

Often times I come across people who only meditate when they are going through tough times. Other times I hear from people that they are going through tough times and they can’t meditate. It does surprise me that the simple act of quieting the mind is so difficult when the drama and chaos of life, in other words ‘a growth period’, stops us from doing the very thing that is needed to get through it!

Meditation helps you get through a growth period FASTER!

It allows you to find answers by listening, changes your vibration and gives any energy or problems that you’ve taken on from others to gently fall away. A grounded meditation and release actually gives the energy a place to go. Meditation helps you access your inner sanctuary and is a safe place to get away from the swirling chaos. It’s very much like taking a vacation from your life for a few moments.

Meditation doesn’t solve problems.

You don’t need to “solve” anything! In fact, you are not a problem, your life is not a problem and NOTHING needs solving! You were born into your body to learn and experience exactly what you are learning and experiencing! It would be wonderful if our lives were all perfect with nary a stumbling block but that is not the case. Meditation doesn’t make your life perfect and bring you everything you want. It does however, bring you into present time and might even allow an answer or two to sneak in! Trust me, your problems will still be there when you finish meditating but perhaps they won’t seem as monumental as beforehand.

Meditation creates a sense of peace.

It allows you to change your perspective about what’s going on. Much of the time you will notice that most of the chaos has nothing to do with you personally, however it also allows you to own the part you played…and there is always some part you played. If you find it difficult to quiet down your thoughts, just allow them to float by, acknowledge them and the fact that you have that much going on then bring your attention back to the peace and safety of your inner sanctuary.

Why meditate when things are going well?

When everything is happy and moving along smoothly taking the time to meditate not only helps keep things moving along smoothly but when (not if) you run into a road block you will handle it more easily. It is a great time to dream, create something new and focus on your passion. It is a time to validate all that you are and shine your light even more brightly.  Each time you do this when you are feeling good, your body will remember what it feels like and make it easier to come back to that space other times!

The great thing about meditation is that by changing your vibration and releasing that which isn’t you, you change your life and heal. You change how you view life with its many obstacles AND find answers for how to handle them. You don’t need anyones permission and you may even heal those areas of your life where you feel stuck! Don’t believe me? Goggle it and check out the latest scientific research on the benefits of meditation. Why not start today and create a whole new world?~Shine Your Light Debbie

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